Its not often we can be buoyed the the kind of feeling where we can feel at ease and good wherever we maybe. There are times we could feel awkard or bored even when we are with people we know.
However these days, these feeling of calm, peace and relative happiness is with me. Despite going home each day, and never did anything special, yet the feeling is not lonely, but serene and kinda satisfied that I do not complain I am alone or useless. I can now live with more comfortably knowingly I am not I who used to be. That I started to look better to everything and have comfortable thoughts inside my head.
The above was written back in February but not posted. Ironically, the situation seems to change now. Feels empty going home and just repeat what I do each day seems a bit retarded..hehe. Perhaps cause got added stress lately or feeling tired from work. Guess the mind also kinda not working well lately.
Haven't really had the concrete idea to even write in blog. Each time feel like blogging, mind end up just blank and cancelled my intention to blog. Don't know why, maybe too 'blank' lately. Even kinda stop reading too, hasn't read since June. Maybe cause somehow, feel reading is useless. Can't believe I said that..hehe.
Year is ending, yet again. Strangely these two months has been busy working. Too many 'screwed up' projects. Its sad to know what we often plan or expect, always goes against us and somehow, when the time is there, we never make use of it. Its not a new lesson, but I guess its been handed again to remind the important of using time efficiently.
Oh well, we do what we do, only to realize what we done another time. And reflect what we did when its too late. But its never too late, if we did what we could. Maybe.
However these days, these feeling of calm, peace and relative happiness is with me. Despite going home each day, and never did anything special, yet the feeling is not lonely, but serene and kinda satisfied that I do not complain I am alone or useless. I can now live with more comfortably knowingly I am not I who used to be. That I started to look better to everything and have comfortable thoughts inside my head.
The above was written back in February but not posted. Ironically, the situation seems to change now. Feels empty going home and just repeat what I do each day seems a bit retarded..hehe. Perhaps cause got added stress lately or feeling tired from work. Guess the mind also kinda not working well lately.
Haven't really had the concrete idea to even write in blog. Each time feel like blogging, mind end up just blank and cancelled my intention to blog. Don't know why, maybe too 'blank' lately. Even kinda stop reading too, hasn't read since June. Maybe cause somehow, feel reading is useless. Can't believe I said that..hehe.
Year is ending, yet again. Strangely these two months has been busy working. Too many 'screwed up' projects. Its sad to know what we often plan or expect, always goes against us and somehow, when the time is there, we never make use of it. Its not a new lesson, but I guess its been handed again to remind the important of using time efficiently.
Oh well, we do what we do, only to realize what we done another time. And reflect what we did when its too late. But its never too late, if we did what we could. Maybe.
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